if you happen across michael or i on the street and we grunt at you or look a little worse for the wear, please don't mind us. if you ask us a question and we snap back, please excuse our abruptness. it's just that we're tired. exhausted. sleep deprived. and still having to go on with our days to get work accomplished and care for a toddler and an infant.
we don't recall this exact phase with harper when she was a newborn. i mean, i know we lost sleep, but how painful it is? you shut it out of your mind. you have to, or else you wouldn't have more children.
they're both burning the midnight oil. last night, for example, michael and i shuffled between our room, harper's room and the living room rocking chair from midnight to 3:30 am. we lost track of the number of diaper changes, nursing minutes, calls from harper, attempts to get baby bee back to sleep after her mini fits from being laid down in her bassinet. we had a good chuckle about it at dinner tonight. but we certainly weren't laughing when michael stomped back in the room at 3 am last night and asked me how many of these do you want? or when he woke me up from my turn lying with harper by uttering the word boob. to maintain sanity, laughter must not be forgotten.
despite all this loss of sleep, however, i couldn't be happier. i almost feel as if i shouldn't feel this good. labor went fantastic. i seemed to have recovered fairly quickly. and i'm loving being home with my two girls. (and i LOVE saying that i have two girls). it's a euphoric feeling that i don't want to end. so i'll ride this happy wave for as long as it goes. until this sleep deprivation sends me to my edge. and then i'll step back and try to find my happiness once more.
and it looks like we're not the only ones losing sleep. my friend, christina, sent me the link to her blog last night at 1 am for the preview of our family photos, and i saw it on my phone at 5 am while up with crosby. i can't say enough about these. they are absolutely GORGEOUS (and if you've been reading my blog, you know i only rarely use capitals). check out my talented friend and our first family-of-four photos here.
and with that, we're off to bed, hoping for a bit more rest from our two littles for this weary mama and daddy. g'nite.